Made For You

I am currently on a Grey's Anatomy kick where I'm re-watching old episodes I have seen before on Netflix while the twins are nursing.  I like watching shows I've seen before while they nurse because then I'm not distracted by the plot of a show I'm watching for the first time when one of them needs something. 

Recently, I watched an episode where the characters were singing -- it was Grey's Anatomy's attempt at a musical.  One of the songs struck such a cord with me and so I found it one youtube and have listened to it pretty much everyday since then.

The song is called The Story, and for me it almost perfectly expresses how I feel about my children -- the message I would leave for my children.  I wish I could find a music video of the song where the singer is clearly a mother talking to her children -- and the Grey's Anatomy clip has one verse where that happens, but for me, its more than one verse... this entire song echos in my heart of how I feel about being a mother, about having our three children, about loving each one of our three children, and it makes me cry every time I hear it.

Here is the clip from Grey's Anatomy and below that are the lyrics:

THE STORY

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true, I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines, and I broke all the rules
But, baby, I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do
I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do
And I was made for you

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true, I was made for you
It's true, I was made for you

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For me, I love the image of each line of my face being related to a story from life's journey.  I also love the idea of telling my children my stories someday -- and really, what good are stories when you cannot pass them on?

And on my life's journey, I have traveled on many windy roads, and had my heartbroken and learned a great deal.  On my journey, I questioned everything at one time or another except one thing -- motherhood.  Through every joy, every trial, every adventure, every misadventure my dream of having children, my dream of being a mother, my dream of having SEVERAL and dare I say MANY children remained.

My husband is wonderful, and I love being married to him, and I love being his wife.  I think we compliment each other well, and we both work at having a stronger marriage every day, but when I think about fulfilling the purpose of what I was put on this earth to do -- I was made for my children.